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I just wanted to see if anybody had ever felt like there was a huge piece of their life
missing because they didn't remember being a baby?

all these people know me from when i was little and i don't remember any of them.
and now i don't know what i'm expected to say to them when i finally meet them or
talk to them. not to mention my fucked up childhood that i had a completely different
memory of that NOW everyone likes to share with me that i'm wrong and i was some crazy
little kid that was hard to babysit.

i'll delete this later i'm just spacey and thinking too much.

Weeird Questions (stolen from Liz)

1) What side of the heart do you draw first?
- - » rightside. :)

2) Can you dive without plugging your nose?
- - » Yeah..

3) What color is your razor?
- - » Blue.

4) What is your blood-type?
- - » O Negative. (I'm rare!)

5) Who would you want to be tied to for 24 hours?
- - » No one.

7) How do you feel about carrots?
- - » I like them...?

8) How many chairs at the dining room table?
- - » 4.

9) Which is the best Spice Girl?
- - » I don't know.

10) Do you know what time it is?
- - » 7:31 PM

11) Do you know all the words to the Fresh Prince Theme Song?
- - » Yup. :D

12) What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator?
- - » Chill.

13) What's your favorite kind of gum?
- - » Winterfresh.

14) All's fair in love and war.
- - » No.

15) Do you like anyone?
- - » Yessss. :)

16) Do you know how to use some words correctly, but not know the meaning?
- - » Yeah hahahaha.

17) Do you like to sleep?
- - » Yes I do.

18) Do you know which US states don't use Daylight Savings Time?
- - » Nope. I don't think Hawaii does. And Liz said Arizona
so I know THAT now. :)

19) Do you know the song Total Eclipse of the Heart?
- - » No.

20) Do you want a bright yellow '06 mustang?
- - » No, I don't.

21) What's something you've always wanted?
- - » a mustang, actually.

22) Do you have hairy legs?
- - » Nope. :) They hairless and soft.

23) What does "Semper Fidelis" stand for?
- - » GOOGLE.

24) Would you rather swim in the ocean or a lake?
- - » Ocean in Hawaii, lake in Georiga. :D

25)Do you wear a lot of black?
- - » Nope. I haven't worn a black shirt outside of my house

26) Describe your hair?
- - » Curly and blonde.

27) Do you have Entomophobia?
- - » I wikipedia-ed this and NO I do not have a strange fear
of insects.

28) Are you an adult?
- - » Nope.

29) Where is/are your best friend(s)?
- - » one's like 2 miles from my house and the other is off
somewhere with Kate I think.

30) Do you have a tan?
- - » Not really.

31) Are you a television addict?
- - » Pretty much. But not like a couch potato

32) Do you enjoy spending time with your mother?
- - » Yeah.

33) Are you a sugar freak?
- - » No. High sugar levels make me cringe.

34) Do you like orange juice?
- - » YES. :D

35) What sign are you?
- - » Aquarius.

36) Where do you wish you were right now?
- - » anywhere with *somebody* ;)

37) Who did you copy this from?
- - » Liz Morris. :)

38) How do you know them?
- - » around.

39) Have you kissed anyone in the past week?
- - » Yes..

40) What are your plans for the weekend?
- - » hanging out with Erin I think :)

:D i hope you enjoyed that.

I want to cry

I don't love me, and I don't love life. I hate everyone and especially everything right now. I wish stupid things didn't matter, but they do.

I feel like shit all of the time. And barely anyone reads this journal so I think go ahead and talk about the fact that Blake R. pisses me off. He did some bitchy shit to me that was just WRONG. and it still fucking hurts. and no matter how hard I try to forget it, I can't. It's stuck there just live everything else. In fact, this shit makes me have a headache that feels like a hemorage. I want to die. But I want to live. I don't want to be acknowledged anymore. I just want to float through life alone without people talking to me or looking at me. that will get rid of the stress, the hemorage headache, and me having to fucking tell people what's wrong.

OKAY, next. The other thing wrong is that I might have to move. And if I do, then no one's going to care except Gina. They'll say,"I'm going to miss you!" but the truth is they'll stab me in the back the second I'm gone. Blake claimed at one time that he would miss me but we know now that he's too "in love" with Kathleen. whatever. this shit is gay.

Last- I'm always fighting with my best friend. It feels like she's allowed to invite people along with us, cancel our plans, change our plans, like my songs and say words that I made up on my own, but I'm not aloud to do the same back. And a lot of people like her because of these things. AND THEY THINK I COPY HER. AGH, I hate it.

whatever. fuck you and fuck life.

(this will probably be a 0000000 commented entry)

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I'm in Hawaii.

As you know, I'm going to Hawaii this summer.
Well, now I'm taking Gina.

here are the places we're going to go

-Ala Moana Mall (once was the biggest mall int he world)

-Sea Life Park

-Waimea Bay
For snorkeling

-And of course we're going to Waikiki

-Pearl Harbor (I'm sorry, you're an idiot if you don't know what this is)


Other than the ones listed above, we're gonna do the usual
and mostly stay at my Grandma's and our beach house.
I am of course bringing back pictures of the house and of the mall
and all the other places we go to as well.
I'm getting a digital camera before we go, so they'll be high quality

Well, that's all that's happening.

Things have been pretty grand lately. I've got my trip to Myrtle Beach, Hawaii and maybe Europe coming up, so I'm pretty content with my summer schedule. And pretty soon, 7th grade will be done. And I'm so glad.

But there's still something about school and stuff that hasn't been the same. I miss SHS games. They were so much better than sitting in the dark for 2 hours with the same people, time and time again.

We have (my family and I) accumulated some quite obnoxious neighbors over the past couple months, though. Especially one little girl that is about 6 or so, who wants all of my old things from when I was younger. She even stole my slide from my playhouse (from when I was about 4 or 5). This little girl is gradually becoming the most annoying girl in the world.

But otherwise, things are great.
Well, comment and tell me about your spring/summer break if you want.




Went to Myrtly Beach for my cousin's
wedding. Saw lots of Family, which was
fun. I have a baby cousing that is 5
days old today. His name is Estin and
I <3 Him.

Pictures Coming Soon.

She's asleep.
But she needs to wake uppp.

Not in the mood for writing a book, so this is it.

Signed up for Softball yesterday. This is like the best thing
that's happened to me for a while (besides my Hawaii trip in June).
School has become.. I don't even know how to describe the way I
Have started to feel about school. It's gotten really boring and
it's beginning to seem different. I can't finish my book anymore,
I'm constantly getting in trouble with Mrs. Donna for talking, or
laughing, I try to pay attention in Science, but Mrs. Gwen's voice
just goes through my head without me really hearing it. And in
writing I talk more than write, and do things at the last minute.
In Georgia History, I don't really have any problems. Art has become
my favorite class. I can do anything I want in there (not like getting
into trouble and such). I don't have to impress Mr. Ashley into
letting me stay like all the other teachers. But then SOMEBODY had
to go and ruin Art for me too. P.E. was my favorite class until our
teacher quit to go teach at a "real" school. Now we spend the day
outside doing NOTHING. He had softball, then kickball, then football,
then hoops, then FREEDAY EVERYMOTHERFUCKINGDAY. I can't take out my
phone because every second I do, here comes Mr. Benji who NEVER cares
when I have my phone out, telling me that I have to put it away.
And now, someone usually has my iPod during P.E., so I don't have that
either. This is really long and I doubt anyone's going to read it all,
but I feel better knowing that I let it all out.

Well, here's the better part of lifeCollapse )